Sunday, April 26, 2015

Motherhood manifesto, draft 1

I am your mother.
By the nature of our relationship, I have authority in your life. You and I both know this, can sense this. But we struggle.
I love you more than anyone else in the world is even capable of. You will always be safe with me. I will always do what is best for you.

I want to be your friend. I want to share secrets and talk about things and cheer you on. But I am not a child and I cannot overlook some behaviors. I have to tell you what to do at times because it's my job to see that you are safe and learning and growing.
I want to play with you but it is not my job to entertain you.
It's my job to take care of you but not to do it all for you.

My job is to teach you. To provide for you. To hug and love and snuggle you and be a safe place for you to fall. It's also my job to give you the skills you need to learn to fly, so that you are best equipped not to fall.
I won't put your shoes on when you are old enough to do it yourself.
I will not wipe your bum when you need to learn how.
I will not feed you candy and junk food because you think you don't like anything else.
I will make you brush your teeth and hair and take a bath once in a while.
I will make you go to school and I hope to teach you great and wonderful things and instill in you a love of learning.
I make you get your shots and go to the doctor when you need to.
I will pray with you and read scriptures to and with you. I will take you to church and teach you what I believe in because it's important and I want you to have a chance to learn and understand it and have that security in your life like I did.

Most of all, I will love you no matter what. You are my child. You grew inside of me and I literally have a part of you as a part of me. That will never change and I will never let go of you. I will always be here. You will always be safe with me.